The Hardest Day So Far

It's Friday. The hardest day of the journey so far.

We now of results. We no longer have to guess. And now we start telling our closest friends and family. Which is difficult. I hate it. I want to be the bearer of good news. Positive. I don't want to ruin people's day. Ever. We love helping others, being there for others, bearing the weight of others burdens and storms. And to tell them about ours is hard. To see the shock. To see them grieve. To see them yearn and want the best for us and also have no idea what to do our say. It's hard.

And there is nothing to do.

And there is nothing to say.

At least not today. But there will be. And we will have to learn how to ask for help, receive it, and be humble enough to need it.

Love, the Murrays